COLLEGE!

I just wonder at time if I'm the only one that is going through the "college" stress. ACT and SAT there, application here, scholarship over yonder. Well what can I do! I have a Track Conference meet on wednesday and I just don't know what to do! Should do I wake up early to start my day productive? Or still procrastinate over redundant ideas and let my life just slip away? I don't want to work at McDonalds for the rest of my life. It's the horrible job ever! Besides, I made up my mind. I know what I can do.

After all last week, there was this new kid that I meant while I was trying to sign up for appt. for Mr. Purvis. He was waiting to get his schedule, (since he is new), and he asked me if I was new her. And I was like, no im a Senior, I been here all four years. And then I asked him, "Are you a Senior?". And he replied back saying, "No, Im a Junior". Besides, every since after that day, I always seem to see him. Dude, this reminds me of when I meant my best friend Steven Ansell. Until the time and life errupt, he's no longer to fond as my best friend anymore. We had different views in life. Hey, could this be my new best friend? Well, not best friend, I have one, which is Omar Jara, but after all, Im talking about the one at school. Or is this just way to creepy to be talking about? I also have a best friend that is a girl, but she can't always understand me, because I guy and she's a girl and it would be way different If i say something like ,"yeah she hott dude "to her. Not so good. But yeah, maybe I should say something? Or is he just new, and doesn't have any friends.

Life is ticking and I need to do my NHS hours. I only have one hour! I need twenty-four more to go! Maturity is kicking in, and I have to look at my life and go towards the right path God wants me to be in. That means, avoid stupid stuff my that my friends deal with( in which they seem confused or something), don't worry about getting a girlfriend( my time will come very soon my senior year, I GOT TO GET SOME THINGS DONE), and focus on my sports career at school as well as my GPA( thank God for a 3.75!)

Overall, my car is useless, and I just gave my car to the Lord, and when the time being, I get to have a actual teenage life. My life is good, and Im thank God for it everyday. But my fun is wearing thin, and yeah, I want to let it be on the safe side.

haha...ACT this Saturday, definetly need to have fun.( Lord please bless me to get a 32 on the test, in Jesus name Amen.)

12/26/2009
Well its almost the New Years and I'm so excited! I'm sort of ready what life has to bring, but so far spiritually, I really want to change and become a different person! 2010 is the year, even though its my graduation year, its also going to be amazing year as well. I just feel that something is going to turn around. Don't remember at church when you have to turn around when the choir singed the song, " God is going to turn it around, he's going to work in your favor!" Well you know what, Gods going to turn it around. After all I need to get some things straight with God, well I need to be more committed to him, before he can work in my favor.

After all, living lives between two family is getting interesting. I sort of don't like it, but I enjoy there company. Since my "real" family is far away, having the third family is interesting. HAHA, the food is the best. Speaking of family, yesterday was the first Christmas that I did not have with my mom. I went to my Dad's house, and he set up a Christmas party....well honestly, I believe that his "wife" Ms. Melisa....haha I met Mrs. Melisa LOLZ, had set up the party. I think my Dad is submissive to her kind of, well since he is unemployed in all.

Just peeping in corner....haha eavesdropping!!- "THEY ARE NOSY NOSY NOSY!!!!!!!!I CAN SAY ANYTHING OUT LOUD OR TO THEM....THE WORD GET SPREADED AROUND!!!!!WHAT IN THE WORLD! OHH AND ESPECIALLY WHEN "THEY" ARE TALKING ABOUT MY MOM! KARMAKARMA...IM JUST GOING TO BE POLITE IN A NICE WAY.....AND YES DELETE THE HISTORY FROM MY DADS COMPUTER...B/C YOU KNOW:)

12/5/2009
FML.
Well thats the title of my life tonight Its feels like im being attack by parents for incompetent reasons. Apparently i went the wrong way to go to wilson and all of a sudden my "dad" get mad at me. Cursing repetiviely, swearing. I believe stuff like that should be delievered from him already, dont you think. Already, dont you think.

11/20/2009

"This is it, and this is real"-Micheal Jackson

I'm ready to become a more mature, and serious person. I'm planning on having joy when talking to people, but try not to let people screw me over. I'm tried of people either trying to test my knowledge or either trying to play stupid games with my ultimate accolade! If this car is causing any problems, return to sender. But where would all my hard work and sweat go to? Nothing? After all I'm over that particular someone and just letting the one catch me. She is definitely in my distance, and i am barely friends with her! I believe this would be me. I'm going to be true, and continue to follow Christ no matter what! I may have a few family problems, but I'm going to kept my head forward.

11/9/2009
Today is my little brother bday! Happy 14th! Besides, my loneliness can be filled by anyone except her. Will she ponder upon my light, or gazed Im going to focus on god and me at my amicable blithe. I learn that the hard way.

10/12/2009
Sometimes you have to stop worrying about others and focus on yourself. Most people such as your friends do not consider what you have to say.

9/21/2009
I BELIEVE THAT I'VE OVERCOME SOME THINGS IN MY LIFE. Im at a mature state, time to focus on christ more than me.
Mood:serious,okay